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Friday, November 30, 2012

I'm so tired.  I feel 90% better than when I was first diagnosed with hypothyroidism, but not all the way.  I am blessed that I have insurance.  However it is very limited inusrance (not medical) and I am limited in the Doctors I am able to see.  They say my blood work  is fine and the amount of medication I am on is adequate.  However according to the American Thyroid Association and the Mayo Clinic, with the basic test your numbers may appear to be fine and yet if they do another, more sensative test, the numbers are still off.  I have to convince them to do the more sensitive test. 
I have just want someone to believe that I am not all the way okay.  I know that I am luckier than many people.  But I also no that I can and should feel better than I do.  I am tired always.  I am in some level of physical pain often.  I need to make them listen.  I want to be okay again.  I want to walk and be awake.  I want to feel better.
I just need to get that out there.  That is all.  All in all I am doing just fine.  School is goin well except for math.  That has me a little down.  I just don't get the algebra.  I am going to have to take it again and to me that is a failure.  I have worked very hard these last four plus years to improve my life and become a better person, so I see the math as a failure.  I know it is not.  We all have things that don't come as easily, and for me it is math.  So I will take it again and I WILL get it next time.  Anyhow, I am going to bed now.  I will write again soon.  Happy Christmas and Happy Holidays to one and all.

1 comment:

  1. “Have no fear of perfection - you'll never reach it.”

    “Failure is the condiment that gives success its flavor.”

    “Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly.”

    You are trying and that in itself is success!!!
    I am very proud of what you are accomplishing.. I am also sad that you are in pain..I wake up most mornings feeling like crap..I don't suffer what you are suffering but I long for the days when I get out of bed and feel refreshed. I get out of bed feeling exhausted. But usually after a couple of hours I feel better. I keep playing the lotto so maybe one day we will all get good health insurance..not just insurance to barely fix us....hang in there and keep up the great work!!!!