I was having a good day today. I went to the college to take care of some financial aid and name issues. Those were the last obstacles to my registering for the Spring semester. I was feeling like for the first time in a long time I am working towards a goal. First I am going to get and A.S. in Computer Science because that will help me get a good job in the short term. But I also plan on transfering to a CSU campus and getting at least a bachlors degree in Political Science.
Then I got a message on facebook that is on the verge of ruining my day. I sent a message a few days ago to someone I had not seen o r heard from in a long time. I often wondered how she was doing. Well, apparently in her mind I am to blame for all the problems her and her family have. I am so tired of people blaming everyone else. I didn't turn her father into and adultrous alcholic who slept with his best friends wife. I didn't physically ransack her house (that as it happens was the best friends wife that her father slept with.)
I have had some hard times in my life. Not because of things people did to me. Not because I had horrible parents (I didn't by the way.) The hard times were casused mainly by decisions I made and the circumstances of life. It is what we do with those hard times that make us better people. Not who we blame for them.
It's time to grow up and take responsibility for ourselves. Quit blaming other people for all the bad things that happen.
I know I have to let it go. Just as I didn't cause her problems, I cannot let her ruin my day.
I wish I could bottle all the hatred and anger in the world, and turn it into energy. I could light up Los Angeles for all time. And the world would be a better place. We have to let go of it before it destroys us.
Anyhow, I am going to go back to my happy place. I am going to focus on my future and what I can do to make myself and the world I live in a better person/place. That's what I can do today.
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